Coffee Date

If we were having coffee right now I would tell you that I’m sorting my photographs from my last vacation. And boy, do I have a lot of them. I love photographing, and you? It’s such a way to keep your memories. And printing them. I love printed photographies, my printed memories…it’s different for me than the digital ones.

If we were having coffee right now I would tell you I’m old. I mean, I don’t feel old, but the job market does make me feel like it. “Job such such, with this much and much, for people below 35 years old”…BELOW 35? Really!? And this is why I need coffee. Loads and loads of coffee.

If we were having coffee right now I would tell you I’m dreading the future. It just seems so bleak right now. I’m afraid. I just wanna move away from here. My country is going to drown in this vicious circle that it’s in right now. And I’m afraid.

If we were having coffee right now I would probably need a drink to go with my coffee. A nice shot of whisky.

And you. What would you tell me if we were having coffee right this minute? 

 

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Open Letter to a Bullied Person

Dear Bullied Person.

It’s not you, it’s them. It is not your fault.

I know it’s hard. It hurts. You go home and hide in your room, blast away music, hide yourself from the world and cry. You try to feel safe in this little space, make it yours, but you also shy away from everyone else.

Your parents will tell you it’s fine. That you should ignore them and they will eventually move on and stop picking on you. This isn’t always the case. You try, oh you really try to ignore their mean words that hit you like bricks. You go into the bathroom, to cry alone, to avoid doing it in front of them, but they follow you and wait for you to come out. To just resume what they were doing…

Yes it hurts. You’ll cry yourself to sleep almost every night. You’ll try to lie to your parents and pretend you’re sick so you can skip school. You’ll wish you were sick to avoid school…

“It’s just name calling.” people say. “They’re not touching you.” people say. Yes, that may be true, but it still fucking hurts. It chips at your self-esteem, bit by bit, until you become a shadow of yourself.

I know it’s hard, but ignore them. Try to rise above. Find solace in your world, so you can face them another day. Cry if you must, scream if you must, smile if you can…

Just don’t hide who you are. If you’re smart, be smart. If you’re bookish, be bookish. If you’re a nerd, be one. If you have a crooked smile, keep smiling.

Be strong, rely on your family, rely on friends, don’t shut everyone out. But most of all, rely on yourself. With time, it heals. You won’t forget it, but you can be better because of it. No, in spite of it.

With love,
a Bullied Person
(because you’re / I’m so much more than that)
J*

Still about Tsuki

Me and my cat Tsuki lived on our own while I was studying away from home, we had been with my parents for about 3 weeks when I had to go out of town for 2 days. When I got back she was mad at me for about an hour and I had to apologize to pet her again.

Only after I got back did my parents tell me that she hadn’t eaten or moved those 2 days, just laying on my robe on my bed, waiting for me to get home…

They ARE family. They DO love you. DON’T abandon them. DON’T ever leave them and they’ll NEVER leave you. Adopt if you can, rescue one. It will be unconditional love. Forever.

PS.: Thank you Belinda (inspired by a post on her blog bottom line: my life is better with cats)

EDIT: Tell me she’s not such a cutie pie <3 <3 <3

Roma, Italia

I am sorting my Rome photos at the moment. OMG, I took a lot of photos indeed, but what I’m most surprised is how much I filmed.

I wonder if I would have enjoyed this trip more if I hadn’t!? Maybe that’s the reason I was so *meh* about the whole thing.

To record memories, I missed making them!!

Still, I’m enjoying sorting them out so much
(I’m SOOOO in love with my Desktop and I changed all the icons too <3)!!!

Quoting you, quoting me

“Though a candle burns in my house…there’s nobody home”
– Jack O’Neill

I’m a weird person, with a mind that goes very often above the speed limit, so of course I had to choose a quote that it’s different, in the sense that it’s not even from a real person, but from a character on a TV Show: Jack O’Neill (with *two* L’s) from Stargate.

Now why this quote!? Because, sometimes, we all have dumb moments. We’re there, but we’re *not* these you know? And it can be a good thing too. To blank your mind.

When I draw, my mind goes blank for a few moments after it. The relief of putting your idea into paper. When I’m gaming, I escape from this mind as well and go into *that* world.

In my mind, It doesn’t mean you’re dumb (many people assume this character to be a bit on the dumb side), but that you’re so full of ideas and thoughts that you sometimes need an escape. That’s my read on it at least c:

What’s yours?

Time and Space

So I’ve been afk for a couple of days. The reason for that is simple: I was improving my space to write, so it does fit the first theme I missed.

I like blogging on my laptop more. At night, when the house is sleeping. It makes me feels like I’m alone in my little world, and I am, at that moment I am. But it’s not only my desk / lap / couch that needs to be “just the way I like it” to inspire me – my own computer desktop has to fit me as well.

And that’s what I’ve been doing: changing the wallpaper, the icons, adding folders, fixing everything to be just the way I like it…and I couldn’t stop until I finished D: a bit OCD like that.

screenshotI like blogging on my laptop more, and now it looks just the way I wanted.

But for my short / long stories and poems I definitely need a pen and paper. There is nothing like the feeling of a pen sliding through the paper and your thoughts coming to fruition. It is very satisfying and one of the main reasons why I keep writing, even if it is only for myself since I am very self conscious about them x:

I will try my best to be more active and to actually publish some of these stories. They are usually fantasy / medieval based and I honestly have no idea if anyone will read them besides me, but I should give it a shot c:

 

if you have any ideas besides the ones I listed (like focusing on gaming or photography since those are other things I like), leave them in the comments, I appreciate the feedback very much <3

O M G

The moment you pop on your Belf Mage on World of Warcraft and teleport to the wrong city, but then you hear a familiar voice…and you realize your faction leader is your British Final Fantasy XII internet boyfriend Balthier!!!!

OMG